L; Wednesday, July 28, 2004 ♥
Recently i got some funny feeling of myself loving my junior who is also my god didi....
It happens months ago during the time when the yr 1s comes into RP. I knew him from IRC and then chatted over msn and then on the phone. At that time is not that serious as i think, haiz just another friend of mine, it is alright ah. But as time goes by, i feels that i have some unexplainable feelings for him.
The more that i am with him, the more i feels for him. Ah...life is starting to kill me. His way of mixing around with friends makes me feels that his friends are more tolerable with him. Able to forgive and forget his mistakes.
I am completely covered in stress. Sometimes i may even mixed all sorts of feelings together. u people out there might find me very naive to be thinking like that. But it's true that i am doing this recently. I have this feeling for once or twice that i may fall for him for the past one to two months.
Till recently, i've went out with him and then i got this funny feeling that we can be from godbrothers to guy guy relationship. For all, this kind of relationship can be condemn till the core. At the same time i am secretly admiring my ex-colleague, this makes me more confused of this relationship. Haiz....why am i always into this kind of situation where i am mixed up with my feelings.
Yesterday, i got this feeling that i will be attached to him so closely that i do not want him to go away but somehow i am not that selfish at all. I am really thinking that i can love him as a younger brother to me since have no siblings and also can go ahead and chase the gal i want. Isn't it good? I think it is sure a good one. I really hope that this win win situation can work well.
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Wednesday, July 28, 2004]