L; Friday, April 28, 2006 ♥
Days and weeks ever since i last posted my entry... Think i had nothing to write as i got a friend to talk to a week ago... But now he is in BMTC 2 at Tekong, no one to talk to how??? Talk to the blog lo....
So the story goes like this... things are going well, nothing much though my mouth is a bit big... Den now i am going to KL soon again, hopes that nothing happens now.... While watching the show by those project superstars. I was in deep regret that i gave up on a gal i once had feelings on.... while chatting with ricky the day before, i told him that i am a bit on the regret side where i wanna get her back lo... i misses her alot... i am deeply in grief that i want her back... but shld i forget everything and juz go on, maybe there is someone out there better than her??? i wonder why... i realli wanna cry, as it feels sour and pain deep inside...
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Friday, April 28, 2006]
L; Saturday, April 15, 2006 ♥
It is totally rubbish lo... I know a guy for a mth plus... all along he asked mi go his house... i rejected him, i go ask him out he bz, he ask mi out can i ask him out cannot.... funny rite?? den worst still i today work morning shift, till 5pm, i sms him, he instead of reply mi saying he not free, he says that he dun like mi for the sake that i dunno how to groom myself to look better n flaky skin and dirty teeth... Den worst still is that mi and his personality dun click. He minds my looks, i am poor, not as wealthy as him and not as high class as him.. SO wat??? I am happy with my friends around me at least they dun feel that bad, although i know my attitude sux at times, pardon mi for such attitude....
At times i wonder ppl go for my looks or character. Though i rarely have ppl who clicks with mi but i am glad to have a pal since secondary sch who clicks with mi. I feels so sad that i neglected him for the past 2 yrs, sorry pal really put u aside but who ask u move to boon lay so far from mi....
anyway that guy i nv wanna know him as he go for looks, frames ( not fame but bit of fame too) and also $$$... so money minded for wat... Those ppl who dun give a damn on money issues and items, they knows that money dun comes to u when u 1st step on this world and will nv be able to bring it with u when u die.... The only things that bring along with u is our memory lane. A lane where happiness, saddess stays.... so does your friendship, family relationship, brotherhood and many more.... I nv neglect this, no matter how u look as long u are a good person can liao but of cos age gap does matters....
Suddenly out of this i recalled a gal, call SL, she sort of let mi grew up a little, at the least i know what went wrong, i hope that she is feeling well emotionally. Hope her life is going smooth now... BUT my wish is still get her back, i really hope to be with her. Sadly saying that i have no qualities to suit her, but i am realli happy that i am able to hold her hands at least without any regrets. So angry and sad that i wish to cry it out, hope it will be better tml bah.... cya and elton pls tag here thx.... all guys also pls...:) love ya guys, i dun kiss but i hug.... hugz everyone...
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Saturday, April 15, 2006]
L; Tuesday, April 04, 2006 ♥
been jumping 2 blogs for the last 2 yrs.... Think i will juz focus on xanga and blogspot here bah where blogdrive will be my stepping stone... Looking back, i feels that is like a memory lane where my growth had started.
In secondary school, lifestyle was so black like anybody's the most darkest lane and time ever. I was outcast by some people but still some are my friends always. Though religions gives mi a motivational force but still i need to find a life of my own, a place where i could merge myself in and also people can merge it.
My first secret admirer is a gal i know in poly yr 1, it lasted for half a yr till christmas i still got such feelings. I remember that when i see her, the feelings in me is like totally out of control i could just try all ways to win her heart over. But end up i let it off becuz it does not belongs to mi...
Life is so vague and also plain over the 3 yrs in poly... any kinda love and crush comes and go till i wanna die or go be a monk... Have a total line break between the love life and religious life... Oh gosh am i thinking something bad???
Or maybe this could be a better one among all times.
Time after time, i wonder when will i ever had something that i always wanted.... think is better to leave it like that rather than anything else bah....
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Tuesday, April 04, 2006]
