L; Monday, December 27, 2004 ♥
looking at some ppl blog and found that he is in trouble, i wish i can be the one listening to his problems, but due to some circumstances, i could not put myself into that situation to listen to his. It is like, i pity him, i wish to give that person a bit of luv. Some kind of luv, that may give him comfort, kills his loneliness, give him advice. End result is that, i can only keep it deep inside my heart, i have not guts or no place to express my views. Everytime i want to show concern, people would say i busybody, say i stupid, scold me up and down.
Everybody has the urge to say or do things, why is it so when the right thing should be done at the right time will be said the wrong thing? When the thing should not be done, will be said to be the right thing? I am damn frustrated with that. Looking at someone to be like my past, i feel so sorry for them. Now i am feeling so.....mad, frustrated, sad, tired, bored, timid and many more.... i really hope to do all things now...but how and which can be done and which should not be done?
It really breaks my heart, and kills me on the spot. Some people asked me to change, i change but to the worst. How long would i need to change, 10 days, years, weeks, months or wat??? I dun think i got that time. I always got this feeling that i will not live long....i got things to learn, do, try out and clean up. What can i do, how to manage, why people always rush me to change??? i know is for my own good, but then,.....realli tiring, pain. i need to learn, yes but then who can give me motivation, interest, reminds me? Not this one, not that person, BUT U. I NEED U, L****R i need u, u are the motivator, your words worth more than anyone else, i hope that u know, i realli need u. As a bro, close friend or wat....i juz wish to let u know, whenever we have troubles, u or me, i will be by ur side, helping u out...k???
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Monday, December 27, 2004]
