L; Monday, July 10, 2006 ♥
in less than 14 days, my end is there, where am i going to??? Of cos all singaporean males have to go lar, National Service lo... what u guys thinking about??? Neh, think is too lame to continue in such a way...
So back to topic, recently i find that i am always into fantasy, like ppl who love to daydreams lo.... I am now dreaming that i am living in an apartment by the coast of singapore.... i wish that i am staying in there 20yrs down the road.... by hood by crude, i wanna stay in an apartment with minimum of 4 rooms, so that i can accomodate the ppl i want them to say, but at least my wife if i am able to have one.... i am in dreaming mode liao, even though NS is juz next friday, which will start another phase in my life...
I was chatting on msn this afternoon, we got common topic where we cannot accept in male homo family, yah, i dun deny that i love guys, but the main issue why i love guys is that i admire how manly they are, how nice looking they are, how cute they are, how i wish i am in their shoes of have part of the talents they have.... But fat hope la, save money and go have a make over lar, sure come out nice nice de.... who dun want leh, right guys??? I am sure that my friends who are singles, hopes to have a gf of their own love them for what they are.... No offense to gays but so sorri that i might be stepping out as a bi in the next 5 yrs....
Am i saying somethings that i am unable to do again??? Maybe is time to build up my self confidence bah, go by my faith, nv do things that i am unable to do... dun kong kou shuo bai hua... talking nonsense am i??? yah muz be always day dream.. oh fuck, am i going nuts??? go and die lar mi... haiz...
Went out with GS, he always the same, ask mi when i am going to get a gf... now is not realli the right time lo... haiz... dun gao gay deeper can liao la... but den am i able to get a gf in future??? hope that fate comes faster, den i will have the motivation to do homework liao lo.... haiz... hungry le... i gonna find food....
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Monday, July 10, 2006]