L; Sunday, July 16, 2006 ♥
In the past when i am still a poly student, RJ is a daily neccessities for us....
But ever since i grad liao, i totally forgotten abt it... think i make a 6 mth RJ now bah... dunno will anyone read it, if yes pls tag on the tagboard thx...
Let mi update about myself, recalling from december 2005, i got feeling for a god sis in sch who is RW but now, is juz pure friendship... Yah, celine u improved my mindset too... Thanks for that but sometimes i wonder why my attitude changes at time, from good to bad, bad to worst...
Brothers, if u guys are reading, i really appreciate that u guys still care for mi, though i feels that i am being left out, but u all still try to make mi feels that i am within u guys, though words cannot represent what i feel because i sort of let u guys gave up hope on mi liao... Most of the time i let u guys feels that u shld not put in effort on mi but still thanks for u guys to stand by me when i nid u realli appreciate that when i am in rp...
Apart from it, i gain and lose a few friends too.... I managed to gain back a few friends like gim swee, changyuan, jonathan, jun 'an... I manage to gain them back after years of seperation.... We know each other since sec 1, 1998, veri far hor??? But i lost almost all of my pri sch friends, so sad... becuz we dun share the same frequency??? Perhaps yes...
Some friends which i juz know them, i am glad that we know each other at this pt of time, but if i put in extra feelings, hope that u guys will forgive mi becuz i am a lonely child since young, but i nv go groom myself to the best for others to look at mi... shag rite, but NS coming liao, after BMT le den decide what to do bah....
From the first secret admiration to the recent ones, i find that i am the one who thinks too much... I wanna step into love yet i am scared of this and that... what ppl see mi as and when i wish to bring them home, i scared this and that....
isit really that all i think are juz the aftermath and not the preparation??? I think i am digging a grave for myself like what we will do in outfield bah... I heard that is digging our own grave but soon will be trying out liao...
thanks sanz, if u are reading, though u nv help much, but at least u help mi share my heartly thoughts with u...
To be continued....
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Sunday, July 16, 2006]
