L; Thursday, September 21, 2006 ♥
Haiz, colin is back for reporting again... sian sia... dunno how to start off...
thank u veri much guys for promoting mi as a bi, or 302.50... freaking feeling lo... let the whole world know i bi, what the hell lo...
Recently i was posted to safac for training to be a spec in that unit... den i saw this guy since day 1 which is monday... till now i see him i wanna know him, den my ex-platoon mates know him as he is a smoker, den these few days i see him, he see mi, but i dun dare to open my mouth and tell him i wanna know him, den those friends come ask mi abt bisexual things, i answer lar, but i juz wanna be a simple man, who can have a gf as a companion, i know myself, i like guys too but i cannot be together with them wat... becuz that is my rule of the game... knowing is another matter, liking is another matter, sexual sensation is another matter... so what can i say???
i used to have this thinking of hugging and leaning against a man's chest... so does holding hands... but ever since i had a bgr for juz pathetic 4 days, i rather choose a hug and also a chest to lean on will do le... becuz i am still a man to protect my lover, lifetime companion, if time and environment allows, i wanna have a family with 2 children.... i dun wish my family to be like mi, so lonely for life and even the child turning to be a gay also no one knows...
I once asked buddha to guide mi thru, but now, he gave mi a few ppl to test on mi, now is out to test becuz in camp, got one cpl is like shane den another trainee is out to lure mi into the hook... if i am able to pass this things, i feels tht i nid a support from a man, to give mi a push... and a women to support mi from behind, as this will build my family form instead...
i dun ask for sex but i ask for eternal happiness... i dunno how to find that or where to find it sia... hope that someone is able to guy mi thru...
I adopted this baby boi as i almost fall for him, but i know that he will not accept mi, but to ease my temptation for him, i adopted him as my baby boi... so like that lo.... sad to say rite but no choice... as for andrew, not the shortie in my platoon... but andrew, u know yourself, if u happen to read it, i hope that we can still keep in contact... i dun wish to lose ppl like them who can realli give mi advices and support behind mi... without them i wonder where i am now... maybe in imh or still somewhere in the fantasy of love... maybe still in a confused stage???
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Thursday, September 21, 2006]
