L; Friday, September 08, 2006 ♥
Haha, funny topic again for mi... for some, this topic is nothing to them... but now this qn is not aiming on others but myself...
This afternoon i called lester up... I am veri disappointed in him... A man shld do what a man shld do, in my case i thought i can be his support so can he, but now it seems that i am the one supporting him rather than him come supporting mi by giving mi a hand. Mr samuel soon and some other friends, i realli appreciate that u guys actually given mi a support and also a hand. That is realli touching, i dunno how to repay such actions that is offered by u guys out there... how i wish i can juz give a hug??? No kisses, that is for gals i shld say by now after my BMT... Though OC always says use love, but love have to be used wisely lo...
Life is so frustrating that we at times have no idea of what to do and where to head next lo...
This is for lester:
Lester i know i care for u juz like a brother to u, at times i cross over the line and become a person more than a brother. U know a bi has more than one character or attitudes towards love and i am no different that i do have some confused and curious feelings towards ppl at times. Yes i do enjoy the cuddling and also the kissing, but it does ease mi for once but not forever. I cannot always recharge it by do it with u. I have my aims for now and that is finish my NS and go out to work and make a living and also to make myself a better Colin. Colin is beginning to change from a boy to a MAN. So u better change from a boi to a MAN too... We all have cocks, 1 asshole and 2 eyes, we are no diff. If u wish to be an aj forever, no one is stopping u but u are a man, a male.... Regardless u top or btm, i wish that u got the kinda courage to stand up and let go of everything that is bothering u.... No one is able to let it off at one go, i had nv rush u to do so or even scolded u for not letting off.... All i want to see is the smallest effort that is presented from u... Hope that if u happen to read this, give mi a msg over my msn or my phone.
Life is nv easy, i had gone thru my 7 weeks modified bmt with minimal fluctuations. hope that your life ahead can be done too... Anything juz come to mi as a man and not a girly man... i dun like such person...
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Friday, September 08, 2006]
