L; Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ♥
Think it is juz another crush bah... since i cannot get what i want from them, then i will just have to give it up den... I know myself, i cannot do it, it is not meant for mi.... There is this guy call S J Lee, he sort of wanna play gay with mi, but he had moved my heart slightly... Think soon enuff, i will juz fall back...
Met up with a guy call marcus, he is a friend of my ex-company 2IC's friend... so coincidence, nv expect that to happen lo... But still, friends are friends, nv will i fall into such things unless fate gave mi so...
Upon saying fate allows mi, i wondering, what had i done in my past lives making myself feel so miserably sad... Can see cannot know them more... why am i limiting myself such way, can't i juz get back my friendly side???
and for the ANDREW LOW, KINDLY STOP YOUR JOKES SOME DAY BEFORE I BITE BACK.... This is no joke, it is hitting my limit soon, u better stop or else i will give drastic reactions... Becuz i had sort of enuff of the jokes liao, joke can joke but pls know the limit. U had juz hit the limit and soon my patiences will juz blast off...
After reading marcus blog, it came to my mind that they are loving... As for mi, it still in a maze, like the route for mi to learn my ammunition like that, lost like hell... I got feeling for andrew, but nv dare to accept it... I love lester as a brother, yet i giving him more than i should give... Why isit so??? I am getting mad soon liao lar.. somebody help mi... this pain is killing mi le lar... now it is on my own liao... Simple life --> simple man... Things are good to know and some is a need to know whereas some things are need not to be known. Why should be in such a situation? Am i too busybody or curious to go find out what i shld know or do? I feel like crying yet tears are dried as usual. Mother say want mi and my father co-owner to get a new unit, dunno to be happy or sad... 21yr old soon liao, yet still no sense of direction, no one is there to guide mi.... i nid a guide.... i wish to have a lover, gal or guy, i wanna have a feel of it... pls buddha or heaven, can give mi one person who can love mi and give mi a support plus directions? realli lost in civilian life, during work, i know what i shld do, but after work, i dunno, muz i be a workaholic or juz a normal guy out there who can have fun while in their workload???
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Wednesday, September 27, 2006]
