so sianz... got lots of things to say out but dunno how to put it in words.
Perhaps i list it out in point form bah.
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While watching channel 8 show the time. I am also thinking of something else. What if one day, everyone closes to me or someone who loves me left me one after another. What will the day of it be like? But somehow i knows that i enjoy hugging people around me that looks huggable. I really enjoy it, but will i fall into it or actually i belongs to there. Time knows the answer and it is for me to find out. Hope that the time comes faster then.
Please pray for the safety of those surviving victims from the latest disasters. like Sichuan's earthquake or Myanmar's tropical cyclones, totals adds up is around 1 portion of singapore's population, let say one district le. For those who can lend a hand by donating, please do so to help them build their homes back and also to cure for needy ppl.
For those who cannot help with mentioned ways, please pray for their safety and also hope those affected can find their alive family, friends and relatives. Hope this simple blessing can let them feel the warmth they need. To overcome this fear that brought to them by natural disasters.
Please spread around and also please offer your blessings and prayers to them. I have nothing to give them but a warm blessing as a buddhist, singaporean and part of the nation that is there for help them with the least effort that i can do.
hih bloggy, long time no see. Recently, i am a bit fed up of myself. I put myself too high that i cannot cope with what i want in life. I really had difficulties in coping with it now. Reason is that i do not wish to be in deep grieve or regret for life. I want to fulfill it to the max.
IN life i got lots of dreams, it looks so real to be but in fact, i nid to work doubly hard to fulfill all my wishes lo. juz like wanting to get a partner like that. Why i desire to have a male companion, i am worried of how ppl look at me and so on. Cuz i am the only child, firstly. And secondly, i have more straight friends that others, which makes mi a bit awkward after that.
Why i force myself to work doubly hard is because i dun wanna be left out of the crowd. Got lots of thoughts going round and round in my mind, but when is the time where i can actually let myself out of the cage? Where i have the freedom to choose what i want in life. The most suitable thing that i personally thinks that it suits me best.
What suit me best now is to be single, look at everything around me and get to know how to communicate with gals... if not, i wun get to go anywhere from here...
shag out in camp, where ppl like me should be relaxing because ORD date is near. But wondering why is it so that i am still so attached to my work and wondering how's things is done. Am i too engrossed in work and ending myself being so lifeless.
Reflections on what i had done thru out the week.
Wonder what have i done wrong to some ppl in my msn. When they state a certain thing. It is like not clear, they ask mi to use some sense. Now who is in the wrong in the first place. Ok, i admit that i am indirect at fault cuz i dunno that he is busy or indulge in his work. Sometimes i find that wanting to catch up with ppl, also get scolding, dun go find time, also get nagging say why i dun care them? Leaving them to rot and die in peace? No, i am juz giving them the personal space they want. They want it? i'll give it for sure, no worries, 30 days money back guarantee.
think will carry on another day, forgotten what i wanna write liao le...
life and death come so sudden. One moment u are having fun with your gf or wife. 1 day or then a few weeks later, u will find out that u are soon to be a father. When the child is born, U will grow older. When your child got into the cycle, u found out that u are half way into the coffin where u are facing death in front of u. it comes so sudden yet it makes everyone around u sad and feeling miserable.
So treasure what u have within and around u. It hurts when the news of your loved ones, your pet that had followed u for yrs died of certain reason.
When lester says that his chinchila died. it suddenly reminds mi of my 9 hamsters that left mi one by one and my rabbit that suddenly gotta depart from me due to his infected feet. Somehow it shows that i did not really take good care of them but they brought me happiness fun and laughter. Seeing them grow up and grew old. Playing with them and seeing them come to me and made me laugh. I really misses them suddenly. But they are no longer around. There is no way that i can replace them in my memories. So no choice but to carry on normally and not the commit the same thing again in future.
Same goes with my own fault. When i say that i wanna treat my mother to dinner yet i did not go but went out with another friend. And i am really sorry to my mother. Once again i let her down. Feel so sad for her and angry of myself.