hih bloggy, long time no see. Recently, i am a bit fed up of myself. I put myself too high that i cannot cope with what i want in life. I really had difficulties in coping with it now. Reason is that i do not wish to be in deep grieve or regret for life. I want to fulfill it to the max.
IN life i got lots of dreams, it looks so real to be but in fact, i nid to work doubly hard to fulfill all my wishes lo. juz like wanting to get a partner like that. Why i desire to have a male companion, i am worried of how ppl look at me and so on. Cuz i am the only child, firstly. And secondly, i have more straight friends that others, which makes mi a bit awkward after that.
Why i force myself to work doubly hard is because i dun wanna be left out of the crowd. Got lots of thoughts going round and round in my mind, but when is the time where i can actually let myself out of the cage? Where i have the freedom to choose what i want in life. The most suitable thing that i personally thinks that it suits me best.
What suit me best now is to be single, look at everything around me and get to know how to communicate with gals... if not, i wun get to go anywhere from here...