L; Thursday, July 31, 2008 ♥
Now got about 3 things running in my mind. Tomorrow's interview with Horiba Instruments, thats 1. Thinking of L, that's 2. Thinking of how to communicate with my family, that's 3. I am in a very difficult position to make them all run 3 parallel paths.
Why must my family come into the picture of not understanding why am i doing for the sake of my work? Why can't they juz work in accordance to my dreams? Which can be done in reality. Why am i forcing myself to go along with the trend where i dun even have the urge to go according to the trend?
My mother asked me to go study, but does she knows that the time and money spend on study is so expensive? That i might as well go and gain experience, at the same time earn money, den 1 to 2yrs time, i can go study at my own ease.
I got this stupid mindset of mine, but maybe will discuss with him first den i will choose to publish here or not. It is still a matter of our privacy, think the more it goes around, the more the stories will create from there. Think for once, i shall create a life, a new one which can bring laughter to everyone.
The current one shall vanish slowly from everybody's impression of me from the past. Becuz of someone, for myself as well as others. Yes he is correct. For once can i be normal of what i am doing ma? Dun always say that i scared of this this that that. Juz open myself up. Remember Colin, I am not walking alone. No one will bear to see me in this depressed state. Nobody likes me to be depressed.
When people are depressed, looking down or lost of where they are standing, i will always try my best to make them stand up, advise them or what. BUt when i am depressed, people will try to make mi think, but i juz dun realli make use of my mind lo. I find myself so useless or stubborn. Perhaps stubborn in a sense that, what people say to me, i would not take advice but think i beginning to change from the hunting process. As in from there i try not to be so aggressive or frank with what they are employing or offering. Hopefully i will improvise myself till no one remember how come is like in the past.
I will start to take advice for a start that can be accomplised from my level of doing. So keep your tags coming into my box as i will see it at least once a day one hor...
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Thursday, July 31, 2008]
