L; Tuesday, July 15, 2008 ♥
Thanks jeffrey for his precious comments. I indeed gained a bit of awakening thoughts from that. Cuz i got another solution. But is a bit too early to state somethings, cuz mi and him a stronger or closer than brothers. In fact long ago, i treated him like brothers, i mean blood brothers. We opened up further till a stage where people see it as "abnormal" but actually, it is still a stage of opening up as well as knowing each other. He is a guy, who can be a brother, bf to gals as well as... u know it yourself, and a family guy. SO no worries that i will wander too far off. As i always say, i wanna get married one hor!!!! at least a son or better one son one daughter k?
Den today went for interview with Quest-Technology, a company which offers industrial solutions. I make a personal presentation for about half and hour with the combination of Q&A from them. Is like some kinda 3rd meeting during RP days, really is a test to my knowledge in this line. But an eye opening to this job.
Hopefully can get in because it may be a good learning ground to be.
My guts feelings tell me that the more i misses or think about him, the more i will lose him. Cuz it really telling me that i will pissed him off... and make him hate me lo. I dun wish to do that to him actually. Yes i do love him as a what, he himself will know people around mi will see how it is also. I dun wanna make him hate me or not. All i know is that i love him till i now can go crazy because of him. From this limit, yes it shows that i am very particular of his well being, how he look at mi as well as what he do to mi. But i have to prevent or refrain myself from doing it again.
It hurts when he says he hates mi for something. I am feel damn hurt when he dun reply or talk to me becuz of certain thing. I feels damn frustrated, want to cry yet the tears have flowed deep down to my heart and down my cheeks. Heart is feeling damn pain and empty too.
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Tuesday, July 15, 2008]