L; Friday, November 21, 2008 ♥
The bad thing in life is when some one so close and so dear to u suddenly left u alone. This time round is a scenario where my friend is the lead. i am juz a small little character that comes in action for her to lean on for the moment.
To love a person so deeply, when the other party say break off or leave mi alone can leave a veri big cut in the person's mind or heart. I thought i might cry together with her. Instead i stand strong by her, lend her the shoulder and she cry all her hearts out. Yah, at the least i have to portrait myself to be strong for a friend. She says that she is sorry to trouble me. But i told her, as a friend, there is nothing to be sorry.
To those out there who are my friends, especially those treated mi as friends in return or something further listen up. There is no need to say sorry or thank you. U will only need to say sorry if u had misused my kindness to u. after so many times of me approaching u, at least there is once where u realli treat mi for who i am. I am more than appreciate to say thank u to u guys instead. Cuz of my defects i nv expect people in return treating mi as friends. I always have a lower self esteem than anyone else out there.
This time, i will stand up high, and say that i am not the old COLIN for once.
Recently i gt a nick to myself, looking backwards to age 21 or looking forward to 25? Cuz the best settling down period is at the age of 28, for now to 25 is the best enjoyment period. There is a need to control but is not a compulsory requirement to do it.
People say, to love someone else u nid to love yourself first. I wanna say the following to those who reads my blog. " To love yourself in my case is to love someone else." Cuz in this case, it is my character, always caring for others where i will neglect my own welfare.
There is nothing as compared to loving the people around me for who they are.
THEY ARE BORNED TO BE IN THIS WAY BUT THEY THEMSELVES CAN BE IMPROVED OR ENHANCED OVER TIME BUT NOT TO BE CHANGED TO ANOTHER PERSON.
oh ya, forgotten something, recently i found out a new way to let the other party knows that u still love them deeply. The solution is to go to the seaside and shout out the person that u love deeply. BUT dunno how, it will eventually flow to the person's heart and things may change overtime.... note, it is one of the ways where guan yin had practiced during his days of becoming a bodhisattva.
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Friday, November 21, 2008]
