L; Saturday, January 17, 2009 ♥
In a few days time, it will be cny. i realli feel the intense feeling over the days mths and yrs. for the past 1yr, quite tough but i realli find that, it is time that i let go all the troubled feelings. Start all a fresh.
the one that i once loved, is loving someone, okay. happy for him, hope this person can do a good job by taking good care of him. At the least i know that he is happy. he have to take good care of himself also lo. In this case when he falls, who else is to take care of them?
When i see him in tubes, it reminds mi of the pain i had last time. I went for an operation at the age of 11. i was in icu for 4 days before i was transferred to normal ward. All these are of bad past where stress level comes in.
Yrs after this, i got gastric ulcer. this exp is veri painful too. den 1yr later, admitted due to bleed in my gastric again. done blood transfussion and diagnosed to mild depression. took medicine for abt half a yr, and recovered. Over the yrs till now, i tried to keep myself happy but i am still a bit of anti-social.
Sometimes i juz dunno how to love myself.
2 songs i love most.
madonna - hey you. a friend recommend this to mi. he wants mi to listen to the lyrics. Yes it is very meaningful and is a must for mi to do it.
whitney houston - greatest love of all. This song is a song i once sang in kindergarden graduation night. when i was 6yr old. SO long yet i still remember. LOL>.... when i read thru the lyrics, it is a veri meaningful song especially for the childrens. There are parts of the lyrics that goes like this,
Chorus:
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I'll live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all
So i shall move on for a greater heights in 2009. Of cuz.. die die muz fulfill my hopes for bachelor of sci in psychology. either JCU or ECU....
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Saturday, January 17, 2009]