L; Friday, June 23, 2006 ♥
i have no idea what to write again... shagz ah... think i blog what i had thought and did for the past few weeks bah... For the past one week, i've been slacking as per normal and working on the same few days... Thinking abt the same thing again and again to improve it since most of my friends are not free and not in singapore island... What it means? on holidays? no lar, they on their BMT liao, at Pulau Tekong liao... Mine will be here soon on 21st july....
Den on monday, 19/6/2006, 2.30pm, i got a bloody complain, out of no where.... out of the blue lor, say my attitude bad, i keep quiet means bad lar, den those who speaks like a hog or shouts at u is call good attitude lar.... testing my patience??? my patience is damn good, i nv ever dare to talk back becuz i know i nv win them, end up gotta drink tea with manager which he asked mi why i wanna do it....... I do wat??? Did he know, is by word of mouth by supervisor and also customer, did they ever think of my feelings??? I was blamed for nothing and that words being put into my mouth for nothing, den forget it bah, in future dun let it happen again........ NEVER EVER gonna let it happened again... Fed up with the person who sits at the top in the branch. Hate him for life...
As for my personal life plans, think i gonna stay in these roles for him, LESTER, a bro + bf + close friend + soulmate.... can kiss+hug+hold hands de.... think no diff nowadays bah... colin and kero can do it, why i cannot... anyway, i planned to get a gf, when is the deadline, no idea, let time decide for mi bah, since i am not that stable in my thoughts, juz let time do the job den... If i ever rush it, i will nv get the one i wants. If i ever let it slip off again, think i will nv get it again...
Anyone who is reading my entries, i think some are regulars, juz read the following....
To start a relationship is fun and ez, juz say i love u, i want u to be my bf/gf can??? they say yes, it started...
To maintain it==> hmm, think is a bit difficult esp when u hold him/her tightly that they have no time to breathe or rest... haha, think i wanna die of anger and stress, i did try it before u know, start and end so fast that i still cannot get over.... but as time passes, it will juz slipped into your memory lane....
To end it, say ez is not ez, difficult is not difficult.... when sometimes, cannot get along, the phrase is " let's break up"....whoa.... heart break liao, hit the floor ah, knock your head on to the wall ah, and many more actions come out liao... omg, think u can go and die bah.... break up only, is not even your death of your family members or relatives lo.... so fast wanna die, u think your family happy??? they more sad lo... see u in this state....
How to make it a good relationship, give each other the kinda freedom u can and not control it like the dog at your home, the fishes in your tank and so on... freedom is what they want, attention is also needed, no attention means good luck den.... small gifts and surprises also good for them ma... who say no good... nv try how u know???
one sided love, i tried it so many times le, go see my histories bah..., u will see that when i fantasize, it is my one sided love story, one sided love won't hurt anyone but yourself... it gets u into troubles, stress and also problems that ppl might hate u for what u are.... u wanted love but end up is hate, u think is good??? i dun think is good.... i think u might as well juz outcast mi bah... anyway, whoever reads this, pls tag to give comments.... it might or might not help mi but it might help others... do tag and bye...
don't you dare un'L' me.
never.
rooting for
DEATHNOTE no matter what.
look at that 'L'ly smile.♥
[Friday, June 23, 2006]
